Anger

Anger pulsing
Mind racing
Fists clenching
Heart pacing

Brow creases
Swear Words flow
The sunset looks like
Its made of snow

Glass shatters
Heart desires
To do something shocking
Brain on fire

Mr. Logic
Goes for a long break
We rip up paper
For the mistakes we make

Heavy Metal
Pounds in our brain
Anger Anger
Turns light to rain

Anger Anger
Takes peace and destroys
Rids the spirit
Of all its joys

Popularity

While reading a friend's blog, I read a post she wrote about Popularity which sort of made me want to write one too.
Popularity. 5 syllables that keep countless teenagers up at night, wondering when they'll finally get it.
Honestly, I've never been a popular person. But then again, popularity is so easily redefined. Does it mean having alot of friends? Or does it mean being part of an elite crowd? In my old school , there were three "popular" girls in my class. But the thing is, they just hung out with each other. So were they really popular?
I am generally pretty popular with unpopular people. So what does that make me? And what does that make them?
Is popularity a how many thing, or a who thing? I guess it all comes down to that.

Marauders

I have my Marauders Map
And Im keepine it with me
And using it to guide
Me through rough territory

Moony, Wormtail, Padfoot, Prongs
Take me through it all
And when I stumble on hurdles
They don't let me fall

So there's no hitchhiking, getting lost
Begging for directions on a phone
I have my Marauders to guide me
So I'm never alone :)

Waiting

Tick Tock goes the clock
Impatience clouds the mind
Our heart looks and searches
For distractions of any kind

We count the files on the wall
Or the days till Christmas vacation
We build beautiful Greek cities
Out of our imagination

Seconds turn to minutes to hours
Every passed second is a dream
Things arent as long
As they really seem

And when the waiting gets over
We taste the ripe fruit of end
Patience does have a reward
Life takes a new bend

Change me

They all say its important
To live like its your last
So one day in the futute
You won't regret the past

But what if your scared
To just let it go?
To take of your covers,
And let the real you show?

What if you cry when you
Go to sleep at night
You've looked over yourself
You don't like the sight

And what if you can't
Live with who you are?
What if you wish
On every shooting star?

Then how can you live
Like it's really your last
If you hate your life so much
Why would you care about the past?

Into the mirror

I gaze
In it
I see
Deep Down
Behind
Lives Me

I look
For it
Its there
Same eyes
Twin noses
That hair

Like me
Its all
The same
One of
Life's many
Weird Games

I look
I find
My soul
Its there
Broken
But Whole

I am
So high
There's light
Happiness
Everywhere
In sight

And while
The world
Shivers
I gaze
Into
The Mirror

Double Fudge

There are different ways to look at things
Depends which angle you take
And this I will prove to you
With double fudge chocolate cake

You can look at it and be happy
See chocolate love galore
You can take a bite, ride to heaven
Beg for a little more

Or you can look at and count
The calories you will intake
Think of the skirts you cant fit into
Because of that one piece of chocoalte cake

Or you can look at, visualize
Heart attacks and cholestrol
Long narrow hospital corridors
You can see it all

We observe from different angles
It could be friend or foe
Think about the ways
A chocolate cake can go :)

Loneliness in a crowd

Faces all around me laughing
There's no silence, its all sound
How can I be so lonely,
When there are people all around?

A secret whispered from ear to ear
Until it isn't really a secret anymore
People giggling over some joke
Thats hidden inside a closed door

Hustling, rustling, bustling
There's no quiet to be found
But yet I am still so lonely
Despite people all arounds

Split Friendships

We used to be together
Just us three
I watched out for you both
You watched out for me

And when the lillies lured you away
You went without a glance
You did't realize that
You took my only chance

For something that Ive dreamed of
Since I've know how
You took it all away
I hope you're happy now

Tears

They run down your face
They reflect your heart
To keep them away
It's an art

The tears on your face
Can easily be gone
Something makes you smile
Life moves on

But the tears that are shed
When your heart cries
Never really fade
A part of you dies

Some-one shows their love
And you move on with it all
But a shade of your heart still cries
No matter how small

Tears on your face
Slowly they evaporate away
But the ones that your heart sheds
Those are here to stay

Can you see me?

So yes I wrote the poem on a spur. But the idea of invisbility in a crowd started when a girl in my World History says, and I quote "It's like I'm invisible! They don't even know I'm there."
Invisibility is kinda cool. But to not be seen when you're right there, to not be heard when you're calling for help, or crying for comfort or even shouting for someone to share your joy with, that's just sad.
And even if they see you, do they really see you? When you see me, do you know that I hate Sunday nights? Or that giant lizards creep me out? Do you see deeper? Do you know that I'm scared of living in darkness like Helen Keller, or that when the sun shines I feel like I'm a brand new person?
No.
It's sad isn't it?
So if your reading this and you know me, this is for you.
Can you see me?

Can you see me?

Can you see me?
I'm standing
Can you hear me?
I'm breathing

Can you feel it?
My soul's singing
With this happiness
My heart's ringing

And when you look right through me
What do you see?
The shadows of memory and feeling
Is it really me?

Can you see me?
I'm crying
With happiness
The heart's flying

Can you feel it?
My heart's in two
I'm so sad
Does that thought come to you?

And when you look right through me
Do you see this complexity?
Or does only sadness strike you,
Do you feel pity?

Can you see me?
Cuz I love what I've become
Shades of people
Blend into me as one

Can you feel it?
Can you really see?
Behind all these things
Lives me

It's easy

They aren't exactly normal
It's easy to judge
They made one mistake
How easy to hold a grudge

They smile at you, expecting
A grin given in return
You're not in the mood for friendship
Away you turn

Did you ever realize?
That a hand full of care
Once extended,
Always lingers there

And every time you refuse
To forgive, forget, move on
So sooner or later
That hand will be gone

Then what will you do?
Lying in the shadows
Without me to come with you
Wherever life goes

Where will you go?
Standing all alone?
You left a friendship
That could have really grown

So i'm so sorry
I wasn't good enough to be
The person who was there all along
Just that you couldn't see